Letting Go of Control

By Alison Lehman

I am currently working at PCI as an EA in the mornings. I have been placed in a grade nine English class, grade nine Science class and  grade 10 English. My job certainly has its challenges but I’ve grown comfortable there. Last March I entered the School Division via La Verendrye. I worked there until June.

PCI is getting an overhaul next fall. We’ll have a new principal, a new vice principal and three new supervisors for the resource department. Since the resource department is being reworked, this affects me. I was talking with a friend yesterday who informed me that some EAs will be moved to other schools next year because of the changes. She was told herself to check the seniority list.

Well, do you think I could sleep last night? Nope. These changes were rolling around in my head making me crazy and I had a hard time focusing clearly on anything else. Why? Because I have absolutely no control over what is going to happen next fall. Right now I am comfortable in my daily routine and I don’t want that to change. I don’t want to think about going to a new school and having to start over again. It’s really the fear of the unknown.

Today, however, I’ve been more relaxed about it. God is the one who got me in the division in the first place. He knows all things. He knows  if I lose my place at PCI, where I’ll be going next. The real question is: Do I trust God to continue to look after me? The answer is yes. Today, I am loosening the grip of control that I didn’t really have in the first place and allowing God to do with me what He will. Wherever He sends me is wherever He needs me, and I will pray through whatever transition transpires. No matter where I go, I know there will be a pile of kids there who will need God’s love, and I can show them that.

If God ever gives me control, I could possibly steer the  ship in the wrong direction. Not sure I want that responsibility.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord. “Plans to prosper you, not to harm you. Plans to give you hope and a future.” Jeremiah 29:11

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